I fear that I am ordinary, just like everyone...

~pulls her knees up to her chest, wraps her arms around her legs and rests her chin atop them~ such a somber night. must be something in the air...i read something i'd saved from a while back, and it made me...not sad, just aware of an empty space that has never quite been filled. you all have someone (or in my case, several) people like that, don't you? people who have somehow fallen off the face of the earth that you can't forget? people that just seem to reach you in the ways most don't, that respond to that off-kilter side of you perfectly and make every day they are around just that much better? i find little niches that i fit in, and i stay there. i guess i'm guilty of holding back, because i have the conception that while people might like one side of me, they won't care for another...it's really rare when you find friends who you connect with so well. hold on to them. if you don't, if you let circumstances pull them from you then you're left with this longing...and then you have to go and make a whole bunch of new friends.

~steps back and takes a look at her post~ wow...i really AM depressing, aren't i? that's about enough of that...let's see here. i watched saving silverman today. funny. Why can't you just admit I'm the aggressive, strong-willed man you need, and you're the hardcore bitch I've been looking for? is there anything more gratifying that watching a man take a serious beating at the hands of a woman? the answer, no.
weather has been funny lately...the end of january, and it rained. not snowed, rained. it's throwing me off...see, i really identify with the seasons. i have appropriate frames of mind for each new season, but it feels like spring here. the air is thick and humid, and there's that smell, you know the one. everything is coming alive...i open all my windows and let it flow through the house because i can't get enough of it. but it's not spring yet!! what is god trying to do to me? where's my god damn snow?

i'm done. sod off.