i feel strangely good today...

i exercised, i had a loooong hot shower while brodie napped (that's a once-a-month opportunity. brodie napping during the day, not the shower.), i cleaned out the car...oh lord, today has been gorgeous outside. and tomorrow promises to be even better. this is what i've been longing for. i need it in the worst way. day...2 or something of me not smoking. i perservere. actually, today has been deceptively easy. if this is what it's gonna be like this time around, i have it made. inspirational pages from the booklet that came with my husband's patches (he's a sissy. can't go cold turkey like me. i'm hardcore.) adorn the refridgerator. i'd go for a picture of the lung of a smoker, but i'm fresh out. funny...i'm driven to be fit now. not that i'm in an ungodly condition...but i'm finally motivated to maintain my physique, as opposed to having those alternating good/ bad days. maybe it stems from the need to have something to fixate on. regardless, now that i'm actually setting this routine for myself, i'm sure as hell not going to pick my reasons apart and risk losing the drive i've got going. the end.