I need a career.
I'm not going to bemoan the fact any longer that I totally blew my one brief previous college experience. I'm sick and tired of feeling guilty for everything I know I messed up in my past. Moving on. But I need to go back. That much is clear to me. I like working at the market right now; it's fine. But it's not a career, it's just something I'm doing right now. There are so many factors to consider, so many possible paths. What about my husband's job? Will we be moving again? What about my son and his daycare? Should I go back to school, or should I find a job and try to move up the ladder that way? I hate not having the answers, and even more I hate the total confusion that I seem tangled in whenever I try to think about my future. Doing just school isn't an option. Work has to be in there somewhere. What direction to take? I know what I have passing interests in, but a career? Does it need to be something I can do anywhere? My husband has moved us to 3 different jobs since we got married. I don't know if I can count on staying in one place for a very long time. If I do decide to go back to school, how the hell do I start? I finished my short stint in school before without even getting a 2.0. Suffice to say that my priorities were not in order. So I'm kind of a mess over all this stuff. I wish I would just have an epiphany and know what the right thing to do was, so I could do it and not think myself to death.


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