Infernal Blessing, indeed.

(Since Ario has given me his very goth approval, a brief rant.)

So... this person I know online and I, we were friends. Reasonably good friends for never having met, I thought. Then one day I realized that somehow, gradually, all effort to maintain the friendship was coming from me, and that the other individual had become mostly indifferent to it. I spoke with them about this, expressed my hurt, and they promised to make amends. They did for a while, then again drifted away and seemingly ceased to care about the friendship. Okay, now repeat that cycle about 5 times. That should bring you up to speed.

The last time this happened, it was a big fight. I'd said I was going to be done with the drama once and for all... and I was, for a few days, but I missed my friend and so we mended the breach. As usual, everything was fine for a while, but then we went back to the same old song and dance. Now fast forward about a month or two to present day. I'd spoken to this person maybe once in that timespan, and surely they had to notice the polite but chilly reception they got. I was IM'ed by them again last night and was treated to a quick hello and then an abridged version of their woes. I'm not without empathy for people who are having trouble, but come on. I started off being cool and polite, but then I thought to myself, why should I? Why does this person deserve my consideration? So I told them to sod off, in so many words. But I didn't quite flush the bitterness that they stuck me with out of my system, so I'll do it here and now.

What is wrong with you? Really, I want to know. What warped part of your mind thinks that I should still give a damn about you? You had the gall to tell me last night that I hadn't tried to reach out to you either... of course I haven't. I know perfectly well what that gets me - nothing - and so I quit trying a long time ago. Let's imagine that we know each other and are friends in real life. Now, let's imagine that you, without explanation, stopped speaking to me entirely for 2 months even though we see each other now and then, and that this isn't even the first time it's happened. Then one day you decide "Hey, I want to talk to her" and so you try. How do you think that would play out? Yeah, so it's like that here too. Here's a lesson for you, and I can only hope you'll keep it in the front of your mind as you move through life, or else you will be a very lonely person. Don't treat your friends like they don't matter, or you will find you have no friends. Also, don't IM me anymore because I'm not getting caught up in your bullshit again.

I do feel better now. Yay!